How You Begin A Thing Is Not Always How You End A Thing

I’m not gonna lie and say it isn’t hard.
It is.

I’m not gonna lie and say we haven’t cried.
We have.

But even when the journey gets hard,
the loving is so easy.
And even when we cry and let it out,
we hold each other close and let gratitude in.

We might be taking baby steps on this part of my husband’s road to recovery but we are taking them together.

This is a picture we took just before leaving the hospital. I think he looks amazing and I will never forget this moment.
While the pain meds hid from us the truth of what the next few days would feel like, I insisted on the following truth as we prepared to go home:
As we got the news that we could leave, he said to me, “I can just wear the clothes I wore when we came in, that’s fine” and I disagreed. That was not fine.
He was not leaving that hospital the same way he went into it. Absolutely not.

My response was: “you came in one way but you are leaving another. You came in with cancer and you are leaving without it. You are leaving this hospital “new” so we are NOT going out those doors the same way we came in. Period.”

We are out of the hospital and we step outside every day but we are not out of the woods yet.

Not trying to be a troublemaker of a wife here, however I am choosing to believe that even though my husband has taught before, “how you begin a thing is how you end a thing,” this is not the case.

We started 2023 with cancer but we are not finishing 2023 with cancer!
I boldly insist.

I am choosing to believe we will come out of this season cancer-free.

My daily affirmation to him:
You are healthy.
You are strong.
You are sexy.
You are blessed.
I am praying for you.
I love you.